My Greatest Enemy is……… DRAMA!!!!!!!! I HATE IT!!!. I mean why even take the energy to hate and fight with someone. I mean, com’on spread the Looovveee.. haha, but back to serious face. We had this BIG thing that happen to me and my friends a while ago, then everything was going great! I mean like Awesome, then this happen and it’s really pissing me see my two best friends fight. I’m not taking sides im just gonna stay out. They can do whatever they want. But in my gym class me my friends was talking about these songs/ribs, awesome time. It was funny, and then my friends were doing these cheerleading things, that was fun. Anyways, im like obsessed for Vampire Diaries, especially Damon!! This show kinda remind me of Twilight, but kinda better in a way. So i got to ask you something.. What do you do when you have fallen in love with someone you cant have?? How do you keep your sanity??  It’s a mystery what loves can do to you, it can keep you cripple. Anywaaayyysss… My Bestfriend is trying to hook me up with her boyfriend’s bestfriend. I dunno how i feel about this, because i will barely get to see the dude, and what if it doesn’t work out?? Don’t need anymore pain in my life. So thats my update, i know its short bout the drama thing i don’t want to go into detail with.. so Bye-Bye

Life

Life right now is finally good. I don’t/can’t remember the last time i cried, it been SO long. I have a friend who is in a love triangle. What i think she should go for the one that said he liked her, and been trying to be in her life, rather it’s talking, flirting, or just plain on annoying her(: AHHH… Young Love. The other guy she likes, i think she shouldn’t because, he messes with all girls the same way, i have no doubt he might like her, but how can you trust a guy i mean he was flirting with her while he had a girlfriend he can easily do it to her. I dont want her to get hurt. Anyways, my friend and her boyfriend are still that couple that LOTS of people would like to see end. The thing i admire the most about them is the fact they’re so deep in love, that everything one of them do, one get jealous, and how everything they do, they see someone beautiful. Mannnnn i want a relation like that, but right now im not looking to hard.  They just one of those people that wont give up on their loves even if they’re against the world.. <3 Umm, my other friend, she…. Well i dont know how she doing, we dont talk much anymore, i dont have a phone so we dont text or nothing. What am i forgetting??? Oh yeah, my dad got diabetes, yeah i know that not a good thing, but we are eating healthy and he’s doing A Lot better. I’m still friend with you know who, and i actually like being just friends(:.. We still tell each other everything, we still mess with each other, but the feelings are gone. I mean those “I want to b more” feelings, dont get me wrong i still love the guy, but its more a Brother/Sister love. And im ok with that:). Have there been any drama?? No not really, just a lot of smiles and laughter for at least me. I MUST ADMIT, i do love helping out with friend and through their problems, but if i tried to help you and tried to make you smile, and you want to stay mad and not even talk. Im sorry im leaving, i dont want to be surrounded by sadness. Dont get me wrong ima TRY to help,but if i did all i can, then what else am i suppose to do?? I feel bad for saying “im leaving” but its the truth, i mean if someone died or something terrible like that i would get it i wouldnt leave, but if its some petty shit nah, im good.  Today i told someone about my scar, i got it when i was 8. Its the reason i go all out, never look back. Its the reason why i dont give a fuck what people think. What happen was i was stabbed and i could of died.!! You REALLY should spent everyday like its your last, cause YOU REALLY dont know if you gonna wake up the next morning. Anything can happen…ANYTHING!! i dont tell a lot of people about my Scar because its was scary, lots crying and pain. So how i get through the day, knowing what i been through as a person?? I put on a smile, i don’t judge, i live wild, and don’t let anything hold me back. It’s something we all should do!! So this is my update, sorry for not being on. I forgot all about my blog.

Role Play

(The following is a role play between me and my friend Julia G.)

Jayde walked into class and sat in the back where her usual seat is.

She was bored and didn’t want to be here when she watched the other students come in.

Lee’Lee came in and sat next to Jayde, she looks at her weird, she starts to stare a little, cause of the multiple earings.

Jayde looked at Lee’Lee and raised an eyebrow, “What?” She snapped a little.

Lee’Lee looks at Jayde with a expression like ‘BITCH’, but instead she says “Its just you got SOOOOOO many earings O.o”

Jayde smirked, “Oh yeah these I got for my friends. We would have got matching ones but at the last second they decided not to but I still went with it.”

BUSY!

Sorry havent been on, havnt been on my comp 4evr!! This what have happen to me.

Girlfriend/friend

I got a new girlfriend, but it didn’t work out :/. It was for 2 reasons 1 I wasn’t ready for a relation. I thought i was, but i see that im a person that is still trying to learn what to do in a relation. Like yeah, your suppose to love, fight, and all that other stuff. BUT it more complicated than that.! I can’t be tied down just yet. 2. It was a lil awkward. Cause even though i had like a lil crush on her it wasnt a big deal, i saw her as a friend mostly. So that didnt work out. Oh well, better luck next time :/

J. dude/Red

We are friends, but i know whats my limits, i’m not going to fall back with him, i’ve healed and my attention is actually on someone else. He still try to mess with me, like nothing change, but trust me i only ‘act’ like it cause really i want to see what it be like if the tables DID turn… so we got to wait and see what will happen with that.

Almost a Fight.

This boy David, had fake hit me, cause i was playing basket ball and he was covering me and i made a basket while he try to block me. It was totally AWESOME. BUT what he did wasn’t so i was like “Oh, you wanna go. Since you wanna hit me so bad” he came up to me and was like “Lets go, im not afraid to no girl”. Then i grab my glasses and gave them to my friend that was standing next to me and was like “Alright, throw the first punch since your not scared to hit a girl.” He just looked at me, and my other friend Tahoua, was like “aww she gonna whoop yo ass” He was just looking at me and then things got MORE tense. I yelled “THROW THE FIRST PUNCH! bytch” He just walked away cause he saw me balled my fist, and middle finger me, i middle finger him back and was like “Scary ass pussy!” Man i’m little angry that he didnt him me, wish he did hit me. The whole time Maggie and Elaina had a face that looks like ‘Damn, fight bout to happen!’

Homework

I have lots of homework! ugh! (mumbles to self) hate homework….

 

Therapist

Well, i have a friend name Jasmine. Her and her boyfriend, name Brandon, have been having a on& off relationship. Well, she was crying and texting me, how she CAN’T lose him and everything. Well, i got upset so she gave me his number, and we txt for like 3 Hours!!! I never done this for a friend, i’ve done something LIKE this, but never went straight up to a boyfriend that i DON”T even know. Well, the reason he broke up is cause of this one dude, she over him now, but thats why they broke up. So, he’s like sad and mad, and how the ‘other’ dude does this to ALL his girls and how he tells all these girls a bunch of things, so the girls would like, him. So, i was like “ok, but JAsmine didn’t know that, she thought that what he was saying was for real, and he meant it, She’s only a girl, she still learning how to love, she doesn’t know the difference between ‘fake’ love and ‘real’.” He was like ‘ohh, oh well’… So i was like “so your just done with her??’ He said ‘Idk’.. I was like “confused?’ He said “he don’t know if he’s done with her..” i said “thats what i meant. I got idea how your feeling.” then i said a bunch of ways he could be feeling. He said “Yea..’ So i did my magic and made them come to understanding, and now they’re back together:). I’m so happy Brandon, said this to me. “thanks for all your help no one ever helped me with a problem like this” I was like “Yur welcome& thank you, i want to be a therapist when i get older like helping people through their personal problems.” He was like “well, your really good at, & you should be”… So thats the story of what happened yesterday. It was A LOT more, but i have limited time to write something down.

So FRIENDS&STRANGERS if you have personal problems, comment on this update! (Advice 2) and if you don’t want your problem published on this status i can hide it. Thank you!!

4 Weeks

4 WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hopefully 5 then 6 then 7 ect.

MY poems

These are my poems from my other blogg. These ARE my own i just want to put them on here.

Comment the name of the poems you like the most.

Action/words

Actions speaks louder than words, but words defines the actions we do. They both balance each other out, words hide lies but the actions shows the truth, and actions make us believe what is ometimes wrong until words clear it up. What im trying to say is do not let the action we make define us as something we’re not, and dont let the words we speak blind the people who we love or hate. Because in the end the main person who gets hurt will not be them, but YOU

New Day

I wake up to another day, but it feels like the same day. Seeing the same people, feeling the same pain. I don’t see the reason to stay and live another day. Further into the day i finally see, that this day, is me. As i went to sleep with new dream, i wake up to a new day. I never felt so free, from being trap in the same hated day. I’m starting a new me, by beginning with a new day.

I Am the Moon

I am the moon, but people only see me as a sign of darkness of the night. People only see me as a portal for the demons of the night. But only few know of the truth of why i come up. I come up to shine upon the earth to show it’s wonders. I am here to show you the secrets the night can hold. I can show you things that go around in the middle of the night that you can’t see with the sun. I am not a friend of the sun, but i respect him as a small part of a big thing. So therefore i respect the sun as what he is. And now i ask of you to respect me as what i am, not what you seek me to be.

The Pack

I took a test on what is my soul animal and i got the WOLF!!!!!!!!Of coarse i would i’m already in a pack ;D

You are a hunter, yet you enjoy working with a team, though you might be the weakest one in a pack, the Omega, or a Planner, the Beita, maybe even the supplier, Delta. Though, you could even be the leader, Alpha. With a bit of cunningness and slyness from the fox, you realy have sneakness. What will you do with your power in your life? Become a part of a group, or are you going to be a leader?

Family :)

As you can see by previous posts i just said goodbye, to a guy of 3 years. I took  the starting process of  my healing with my family. Omg! It really helped, i did NOT think about him, there was like 2 nights out of the 6 that he crossed by mind. I am surrounded with family& laughter and its really nice.

Sorry this is a short post but im about to eat. I’ll going into more details tomorrow after school.

 

(Which is the day im going to see the guy again. Wish me luck!)

 

New Year=New Me

I told him goodbye 4EVR.. I feel good about myself, i thought i would be depressed, but really i feel good. I’m now dancing, singing, and acting like a FOOL! Thank you dude for giving me that extra push i need to finally leave your side. I hope your life is AWESOME, i really do. I Dont have hard feelings towards you, but i don’t have any.. Nope no more love, no more care, no more hate, no more sad, NO MORE!!

Thanks 4 everyone who believed in me. && i can’t wait to prove ya wrong to the 1s that think im going back.

I’m looking for new dudes good dudes, not a player, not a heartbreaker, but a GOOD guy or girl..

Good Guy On Maury,

So this woman was going through a hard time, she was having sex with all these guys. Well she got pregnant and now she’s struggling to find the father. She said she will never give up on finding him. So she got a DNA test for 1 guy he ended up not being the father, she comes back on Maury, with another guy and he took the DNA test, & he wasn’t the father. A guy at home saw that episode and said she knew that woman from a 1 night stand. So HE called the show, trying to help her thinking the child might be his. The guy said “No woman should go through this alone.” Right then i thought he was a GOOD guy. Well he got a DNA test and he WASN’T the father. The woman went off stage crying, but he went back stage hugged the woman and he said “If you need anything, i mean ANYTHING just call me, imma give you my ##.” I was like “AWW..” cause that is a TRUE GOOD man, any man who is willing to help a woman& her child and  expect NOTHING back, is the man EVERY man needs to be.

That showed me THERE ARE GOOD MEN OUT THERE, just gotta keep looking.